Overcome temptation

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

Today was very challenging. Not my day in general, but an anxiety that crept up on me that I did not expect.My husband had foot surgery today. Of course he has to use pain medication because it was major. Even knowing that stuff is in my house caused an anxiety I didn't expect.
So what did I do... I went directly to my CVR.
I laid on my floor in the office. It is nice and dark.
I went through the process of reducing stress,fear and anxiety,pain free, and addiction. I listened over and over for probably 2 hours.
It WORKED!!!!
DEEP BREATHS
DEEP BREATHS
I have been taking Joice's lead and listening to the ideal Image sessions.
I am starting to see myself in a different light.
A positive one.
By the way... It was 71 degrees in Utah today, and I only dislocated my right hip
once. My back is on fire, and left knee down to my foot are numb.
This is what I have to say to my body right now...
It's OK...Let it go

I don't consider myself your typical drug addict. I did what I needed to at the time. If I can know that there is pain medication that could take this pain away for just a few hours and I don't even care.
I am in control of this... It is not in control of me!
I totally understand the process of rehearsing in my mind how to handle pain naturally, except it, and WIN!
I wrapped my painful hands and went over it time and time again.
I KNOW that every house in the world needs a CVR. The "magic machine"
I have come to accept that pain it is always going to be there. It's OK.
I can do this.
I LOVE inspirational thoughts. Here is what I read every morning.



"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events,
have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose
which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet.
I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it."
-Groucho Marx

Be Strong

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

Never give in and never give up! - Hubert H. Humphrey

To the most special boy

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

Why God Made Mothers

God knew that everybody needs
Someone to show the way,
He knew that babies need someone
To care for them each day...
He knew they needed someone sweet
To soothe their their baby cries,
To teach them how to walk and talk,
And sing them lullabies...
That's why God made mothers

He knew small children need someone
To lend a guiding hand,
To answer all their questions
And to smile and understand,
Someone to read them storybooks,
To teach them wrong from right,
To show them wonderful new games,
And hear their prayers at night...
That's why God made mothers.

You are such a special boy. I am so proud you are my son. Thank you for the privilage of being your mother

Love,
Mom

 

Be someone who finds something good in each day... Then give it to others

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

The World is a looking glass and gives each person a reflection of his attitude.

I have every reason to be on pain medication for the rest of my life. I am learning an incredible realization about myself. I have the power within myself to control this pain.It doesn't mean it is going away, but I feel in control now.
There was a point that I felt like there was no reason any longer to go on.
I absolutely don't feel that anymore.
Every day when I use the CVR sessions I feel empowered. Strength builds inside of me that I never really realized that I had.
I feel like I am in my own personal space being given the most valuable information for my life and my long term success.
Opiate withdrawal is an incredibly painful, stressful, anxiety ridden experience. That little bug still crawls in my head... "drugs will take the pain away". Sure they will, but they also take your life away.
I am learning through these wonderful CVR sessions that I am in control. The drugs and the pain are not in control of me. My mind is brilliant and can overcome any obstacle that is placed in it's path.
Russell De Young says "Life's Greatest Thrill is tomorrow"
I look forward to my tomorrows now. Tomorrow is a blessing as before it was a depressing chore. There is so much to live for and experience.

Today I felt Beautiful

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

Today I felt beautiful. My eyes fill with tears as I write this, but you will understand when my thoughts are complete.
I have realized that the cards I have been dealt in life are changing others lives. External beauty is nice to have, but internal beauty is beautiful. I read the comments that have been made on my blog.
THANK YOU!
I know that I have been given a challenge, but I am determined to turn my challenge into an uplifting experience. I always said "If I could just help one person my goal is complete".
People care! They look in your eyes and say THANK YOU, but in return I say Thank You to them!
I feel a deep honesty inside me of who I am. That I will not deny.
I just felt so beautiful from the inside out today. It overwhelmed me.
Pain is just a part of life. EDS makes it harder. Why not take that negativity caused by pain and fill hope into peoples hearts.

I will leave out there names but these comments touched my heart.



Hey there, I know I am seriously being annoying about this cvr machine you have, but I am so interested in it for my own use and for my sister, I read your stories about how it is helping you and your family, and I am so interested. I just need to know where to find one. I am so impressed with you and the courage it is taking to get through this. I have always admired you, and this is just another reason to do so. Please get back to me with any info you can regarding this miracle machine!!!!


So I just went through all your posts! I am SO SORRY! I had no clue you were going through all of this!
Your attitude and outlook is incredible! and I'm sure that's a battle... but you are so inspiring. You are such a 'real' person, and I admire that so much! It makes me feel silly for the things I complain about, I guess you never know what other people are dealing with.
I would love more information on both the skin treatment and the CVR machine. I'm so glad you are finding the tools and people to help you on your journey.
If you ever need to talk or vent, please don't hesitate. As a person who has not lead a conventional life... I might relate to much of the depression, if not... I know I can listen. Good luck! and know that you are loved!

Alyssa,
First I would like to say how privileged I am to be your friend (again). We finally found each other and I hope we stay close forever! I miss seeing you everyday and wish I could just take you in my arms and give you a huge hug. Hopefully soon I can!
I would really like to come down and see you guys. I want to meet your wonderful kids that I hear and read so much about. I want to hug and kiss your mom and dad. I miss them so much, they were like my extended family.
Anyway, I love getting your blogs and you definitely encourage me to be a better person, not only for my son but for my family and friends too. I wish I had the guts to write a blog and email it to everyone I know. I am so proud of you and hope you are proud of yourself too. you have come a long way and deserve to be happy.
I love you and miss you a lot.

Thank you for loving me. I love you too!

Regaining strength

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

So you would think that a cut on your leg wouldn't take much energy out of a person, but it really does! It is like every ounce of energy you have in you goes to repair that cut and the dislocation you had in the process. I am so glad today was almost 60 degrees! It was amazing. I put my gym clothes on and thought I would have the energy to go. It just isn't there yet. Maybe I will go tonight....Exercise helps SO much. Heat helps SO much. I can do this! I know I can. I am having a hard time getting satisfying breath today. It is like I have to breath in extra deep every few breaths to feel like I am getting satisfied oxygen.

Negativity will get you nowhere

Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY

So The weather is very up and down and up and down. Along with that comes pain, dislocations, poor healing, est...
Maybe I have been negative and not even realized it. It can't be expected of a person to be happy all the time. I am certainly not saying I am depressed. Not at all actually. I just wish I was in Hawaii in 100 degree weather. I have been in a very good place mentally. I have been finding that strength and will inside. I am human and I live in a chronic state of pain. Something I almost feel I am going numb to. It is always there, it will never go away. Hopefully with more practice I will be the one in control of the pain. Not the pain in control of me. It would be really nice to go one day without having to put something back in the proper place on this silly body. Just one day. I want to run with my kids. I want my hips to stay where they are supposed to so I can do that.
If you see me in boots all summer, it's because this darn cut won't heal on my leg. It is way to big to show the world it's beauty yet LOL!