Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
You know it really is important that I cover a few things today for my own personal growth. First of all I have been sent to one Doctor after another. It seems like every time I walk in that building and they know what I have a goofy little smile comes to their face. I had a very good Doctor call me today and give me very positive feedback mixed with some eye opening comments.
DR. "Alyssa... no wonder you have felt the way you have felt for so long, you are very rare and have been hearing their is nothing that can be done except surgeries and drugs for so long. I want you to know that I am impressed with your attitude and outlook on your disease."
Alyssa " I try to remain positive, but sometimes I defiantly have my days.I have had a few in a row.
DR. " I want you to see the best geneticists in Utah. Because you are so rare he is the best we have in the state and he might know who to send you and Mason to. I want you to know that I care!
Thought #1 Well I cut a HUGE gash in my leg. I have terrible balance and fall very easily. Then I sliced my finger open with a knife in the soapy water of the sink. I forgot it was there. So to get to the point, I dislocated my hip in the process and all of the muscles from my waist down are spasmed so badly. Also it will probably leave a huge scar, and take forever to heal. Bummer but that is the card I was dealt for the day I guess. So I feel bad that I actually was so mean to everyone that was around me today because of my discomfort. How rude of me to speak to my children meanly and talk to my husband in disrespect. I apologized and know that tomorrow is another day and I can do better.Once it scabs up I am trying that skincerity on it. It certainly is working on the scares I already have, so why not.
Thought #2 Learning to love yourself for who you are. Not what people think you should be,act or look like. I had a really hard time when I came out of detox and gained 10 pounds, then gained 5 more. Everyone said " Alyssa you look so much better and so much happier". Well I am a faithful gym girl, but hit a few snags because of joints and this cut. Why am I so hard on myself? Why can't I just take off the glasses that I see myself in and see me how others see me?
Jocie has been listening to the self esteem series on the CVR. She showed a lot of confidence today. Jocie is a fireball, but she was saying some very grown up things about body image to her 31 year old mother. She blew my mind. Confidence is pouring out of her.
Thought #3 It is hard to watch your child struggle. It is a blessing when he asks for something as simple as "that machine" because he was stressed out."Mom, I really need to go get on the machine(CVR) so I can just let all this go.
What a simple tool has become such a power tool and blessing.
Like I always say...It is OK to have a bad day. What will I do tomorrow... HAVE A BETTER ONE!
I love the words of this song...
You can travel the world
But you can't run away
From the person you are in your heart
You can be who you want to be
Make us believe in you
Keep all your light in the dark
If you're searchin for truth
You must look in the mirror
And make sense of what you can see
Just be
Just be
They say learning to love yourself
Is the first step
That you take when you want to be real
Flying on planes to exotic locations
Won't teach you
How you really feel
Face up to the fact
That you are who you are
Nothing can change that belief
Just be
Just be
'cause now I know
It's not so far
To where I go
The hardest part
Is inside me
I need
To just be
Just be
Just be
Just be
Just be
I was lost
And I'm still lost
But I feel so much better
'cause now I know
It's not so far
To were I go
The hardest part
Is inside me
I need
To just be
Just be
So tomorrow... I will let today go and just be. Be the best ME I can be. Sometimes we can take life and plan it out week by week, and sometimes we need to just be still and take it minute by minute. I know that I can do this. I have the tools. I just need to take a deep breath and remember that tomorrow I can do better.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Sleep
Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
Since I use the CVR everyday I have noticed several things. Things that might seem normal to someone else are HUGE to me. Imagine for years and years not sleeping for more than an hour at a time, and going for days and days without any sleep at all. My children beg me to put them on the CVR before bed. In fact they ask several times per day. Mason is sleeping completely through the night! I haven't heard any cries or "mom I need help" for several nights.
I slept from 9:30 pm-9:30 am last night. I woke one time in the night, but rehearsed the words that were spoken in the session I had listened to before going to bed. IT WORKED!!! I fell back asleep and awoke refreshed.
When you deal with chronic pain, you also get insomnia, anxiety, and depression. As I am going through this process I feel like I am getting back my life. A life I have never experienced fully before. I haven't felt like this EVER! On the outside most people would never know that I was crumbling inside. I don't feel that way. I can never go without this system. It is now the power tool for my home.
Since I use the CVR everyday I have noticed several things. Things that might seem normal to someone else are HUGE to me. Imagine for years and years not sleeping for more than an hour at a time, and going for days and days without any sleep at all. My children beg me to put them on the CVR before bed. In fact they ask several times per day. Mason is sleeping completely through the night! I haven't heard any cries or "mom I need help" for several nights.
I slept from 9:30 pm-9:30 am last night. I woke one time in the night, but rehearsed the words that were spoken in the session I had listened to before going to bed. IT WORKED!!! I fell back asleep and awoke refreshed.
When you deal with chronic pain, you also get insomnia, anxiety, and depression. As I am going through this process I feel like I am getting back my life. A life I have never experienced fully before. I haven't felt like this EVER! On the outside most people would never know that I was crumbling inside. I don't feel that way. I can never go without this system. It is now the power tool for my home.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Detox Skin
Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
After I came home from detox, the process was defiantly not over. Our largest organ, our skin, really takes a toll. Especially during this time. All of the terrible toxins that have build up for years need to start to come out. More than likely you will see changes in your skin.Rashes, acne,discoloration,and more. I found a revolutionary product. I had three people ask me today about my skin. My husband even turned to me at dinner and told me that I look vibrant, even toned, and radiant. The product I am referring to is called SKINCERITY. I have been using it at night as directed and within days people are asking for it. It is the world's only nightly breathable masque. It is wonderful. It isn't greasy, messy, oily, thick, or anything else we associate with a skin treatment. It is clear. It dries within seconds.It is in a convenient roll on application. No one knows you have it on. You don't even feel you have it on. Since I am now taking care of my mind,body and spirit.. beauty is coming along with it. If you want information on this product please email me.
After I came home from detox, the process was defiantly not over. Our largest organ, our skin, really takes a toll. Especially during this time. All of the terrible toxins that have build up for years need to start to come out. More than likely you will see changes in your skin.Rashes, acne,discoloration,and more. I found a revolutionary product. I had three people ask me today about my skin. My husband even turned to me at dinner and told me that I look vibrant, even toned, and radiant. The product I am referring to is called SKINCERITY. I have been using it at night as directed and within days people are asking for it. It is the world's only nightly breathable masque. It is wonderful. It isn't greasy, messy, oily, thick, or anything else we associate with a skin treatment. It is clear. It dries within seconds.It is in a convenient roll on application. No one knows you have it on. You don't even feel you have it on. Since I am now taking care of my mind,body and spirit.. beauty is coming along with it. If you want information on this product please email me.
More progress everyday
Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
Everyday I use the CVR. EVERYDAY!!! It has become my power tool to stay on the road to success. It is hard to explain exactly how you feel. People have been telling me that I seem happier. I am out more. Each time I feel down I use the CVR. The meditative coaching is amazing. I really feel like my brain is being retrained. Both of my kids asked me to let them use it before bed last night. They slept so soundly and fell asleep so quickly. There is no pill, patch, cream or crazy set up. It is simple, calming, and perfect.
After mason got home from school today he was very upset. I understand... It's cold. With EDS it really hurts. He went and laid down and asked to use the CVR. When his session was done. He came out of the room smiling and apologized for having a negative attitude.
I am not saying that the CVR is only for pain. I personally am using it for several things. There are so many programs in this system that it is for everyone. I get so excited to use it everyday.
Now this is a BIGGY for me! I have not refilled my prescriptions.I have actually slept for 7 straight hours. That NEVER happened before. They even had to give me shots to put me down because I could not sleep before. Each day gets better and better.
Remember it is OK to have a bad day. It's aloud. At least now I have a tool. I have read for so long about unlocking the power of your brain. It is so true.
Everyday I use the CVR. EVERYDAY!!! It has become my power tool to stay on the road to success. It is hard to explain exactly how you feel. People have been telling me that I seem happier. I am out more. Each time I feel down I use the CVR. The meditative coaching is amazing. I really feel like my brain is being retrained. Both of my kids asked me to let them use it before bed last night. They slept so soundly and fell asleep so quickly. There is no pill, patch, cream or crazy set up. It is simple, calming, and perfect.
After mason got home from school today he was very upset. I understand... It's cold. With EDS it really hurts. He went and laid down and asked to use the CVR. When his session was done. He came out of the room smiling and apologized for having a negative attitude.
I am not saying that the CVR is only for pain. I personally am using it for several things. There are so many programs in this system that it is for everyone. I get so excited to use it everyday.
Now this is a BIGGY for me! I have not refilled my prescriptions.I have actually slept for 7 straight hours. That NEVER happened before. They even had to give me shots to put me down because I could not sleep before. Each day gets better and better.
Remember it is OK to have a bad day. It's aloud. At least now I have a tool. I have read for so long about unlocking the power of your brain. It is so true.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Mason on CVR
Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
Since I have had the CVR machine in my house I have been so surprised by the reaction of my family. When Mason got home from school today he asked me to put him on the CVR right away. He said he felt happy all day. Jocie has also been enjoying her experience. She is very high strung and has a lot of anxiety. She asked me to put her on the stress reduction program tonight and she soundly drifted off to sleep. As for Mason... parents with children with EDS know that there are sleep issues. Constant " I hurt. I am uncomfortable. I can't sleep" For the first time that I can ever remember Mason slept 11 hours straight. He asked me to let him use the pain free session again tonight. He quickly drifted off to sleep. Even my mother came over today and asked if she could try the system. After listening to the demo, she wanted to start the insomnia series. She has a very hard time falling and staying asleep. After I asked her about her experience she did this...
She walked out the front door with a smile on her face and said she felt so relaxed. She couldn't believe that even though the comforting, soft lights in the eyeglasses were blue, she could visualize all of the colors and different visualizations that she had been meditatively been coached through. I have been into meditation for years. Nothing compares to the CVR!!! NOTHING! I personally am having a phenomenal experience. Through the calm soothing coaching, music, soothing sounds and comforting lights, I am retraining my brain to control pain. At this point I certainly haven't eliminated pain, but I am learning how to unlock the inner pharmacy of my mind.
I also have not turned on my oxygen machine for 3 nights. I am using the breathing techniques and going over and over the information in my mind.
I slept for a solid 7 hours without waking up.
I know that detox and pain management are difficult, but if we choose to change our focus a new reality comes to you.
I have not refilled my prescription for joint pain and muscle spasm. That blows my mind.
I will continue this process and gain control of my life again.
It is OK to have bad days. We all have them. We can also train our minds to overcome and develop things inside ourselves we never knew we had.
If I had the CVR during the hospital detox I know I would have had a completely different experience. I would have been able to focus. Watching TV and vegetating just gives you more time to think about the pain and discomfort you are in. There is nothing else like this! I know I have tried them all.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
CVR
Attitude is Everything... BE HAPPY
Today I was able to bring home a personal Creative Visualization & Relaxation unit (CVR). I wanted to test it out on my son who also has EDS. He was a little nervous, but I explained to him that it isn't scarey and that he would feel good. I put him through the demonstration, and then to the pain free session. I watched as I saw a 9 year old boy's breathing change and he was even moving his mouth to the calming words that were being said to him. After the session was over, I gave him a few minutes to talk to me about how he felt. These were his exact words
"mom I imagined everything was white and I feel like I just got back from heaven.Mom I feel like I am in a different world. Do not take this away. I feel happy."
Monday, March 1, 2010
Amazing Experiance
Attitude is Everything3/1/10
Amazing Experience
I know that God puts people in our path at the right time for the right reasons. I had an amazing experience today that for the first time in so many years, I have hope. I have lived with chronic pain for all of my life that I just figured that that was how it would be. I randomly went to a salon and met a man that said that he had a system that could help. I try to remain positive and outgoing. So I thought that I would give it a try. As most of you know, I have been in serious opiate withdrawal for about a month. It has been very challenging, but I continue to read, educate myself, and keep a positive frame of mind. I really feel like I have learned that from my father. To see all of his struggles, he gives me strength.
So I go into the salon and they wrap me in infrared blankets and put earphones and dark glasses on me. The room is calm and soothing. I close my eyes and see small blinking lights in the corners of my eyes. I hear the most beautiful voice and music with inspiring words. I realized that I was crying. I followed all of the directions and felt the most peaceful feeling I have ever felt. I read a lot, and try to always enlighten my spirit with good things. At times I slip but I try to get right back up. This was an experience that I feel hard to explain. All I can say is this.... I felt hope. Our brains are so powerful that we can train them to be our strongest healer. If you have questions about this please email me. As I sit and think about this experience today I tear up. It was beautiful and inspiring.
Posted by Alyssa at 4:31 PM
... BE HAPPY
Amazing Experience
I know that God puts people in our path at the right time for the right reasons. I had an amazing experience today that for the first time in so many years, I have hope. I have lived with chronic pain for all of my life that I just figured that that was how it would be. I randomly went to a salon and met a man that said that he had a system that could help. I try to remain positive and outgoing. So I thought that I would give it a try. As most of you know, I have been in serious opiate withdrawal for about a month. It has been very challenging, but I continue to read, educate myself, and keep a positive frame of mind. I really feel like I have learned that from my father. To see all of his struggles, he gives me strength.
So I go into the salon and they wrap me in infrared blankets and put earphones and dark glasses on me. The room is calm and soothing. I close my eyes and see small blinking lights in the corners of my eyes. I hear the most beautiful voice and music with inspiring words. I realized that I was crying. I followed all of the directions and felt the most peaceful feeling I have ever felt. I read a lot, and try to always enlighten my spirit with good things. At times I slip but I try to get right back up. This was an experience that I feel hard to explain. All I can say is this.... I felt hope. Our brains are so powerful that we can train them to be our strongest healer. If you have questions about this please email me. As I sit and think about this experience today I tear up. It was beautiful and inspiring.
Posted by Alyssa at 4:31 PM
... BE HAPPY
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